Yesterday was one of my HAPPIEST days... Everything was so good, so fine, so perfect..
Woke up at 12:30, earlier than usual ;) Vidhya aunty, who lives next door dropped in to give me the best from her oven.. Yummy choco-lava cakeeeeee :):) Just couldn't wait to start my day.. Four pieces of Choco-lava cake is too heavy for breakfast, I say..I had most of it all by myself, sparing a little for my husband.. Was it out of love? :) Not really - last week, I had strawberry mousse from aunty. It was so delicious that I finished it even before she had reached her house. The next evening my husband returns from work, and with a perplexed look, says 'Hey.. I met Vidhya aunty in the doorway.. She asked how I liked her strawberry mousse yesterday.' Now do you get the reason for me sparing the cake? ;)
It was my shopping Saturday; it took no time for me to get ready, for obvious reasons ;) We started at 3:00 and returned at 10:20.. Shopping, eating, shopping, eating.....that had been the agenda! Hectic man !!! But was definitely worth the pink floral dress, which was the best I had got that day. We then watched bloopers of our most favorite 'Friends', and laughed our heads off.. Every time I watch this, I somehow always laugh harder than the last time that I watched it! Happy is the mood :):)
To add to the happiness, we booked tickets for our trip to India as well :) I then listened to my favorite songs of Yesudas in loop, BLISS is the word :):) The icing on the cake was that I never cooked a single meal the whole day. This is what I call a HAPPY day. I fell asleep with a contented heart :):)
The next morning Vidhya aunty complained that my TV was very loud last night. I do like her so much. I was about to apologize until I heard her say 'Why do you watch that stupid sitcom anyway?' I got totally mad and yelled at her. How dare she calls that sitcom stupid? I love Friends...
In the afternoon, I visited many random shops but nowhere did I find a black crochet footwear to match my pink floral dress.. I argued with the salesperson and the conversation went so intense that I became really frustrated.
When I was back home, I was told by the doorman that the management is charging me $500 for the noise complaint. My husband who was keeping calm until then, now told me that it was totally my fault to have yelled at aunty this morning. To add insult to the injury, he remarked 'And only a moron'd buy a pink floral dress. The floral dress should be in black.'
Black floral dress? Moron??? What is happening?? Why is he abusing me now?? I couldn't take it any more.. I rushed into the room, slammed the door behind, started crying badly. I cried and cried so much that I was gasping for breath.. Ahhhhh what is this??? Why is this happening to me? All of a sudden such sad things pop up for no reason?? I cried so loud that my husband who was sleeping next to me, shook me out of my sleep..
Oh crap !! Was this a dream?? I was still crying... I calmed down and tried to go back to sleep but couldn't. Too many thoughts were running through my mind. Right from childhood, I had been told that we dream of what is in our subconscious mind or of something that is associated with what we had done recently.. And to me, it has always been that way..
A happy thought leads to a happy dream, a sad day leads to a sad dream, a dull mood leads to a dull dream.. Agreed. But counter intuitively, a happy mood may also lead to a sad dream. This dream can be NO exception to what I had been told about dreams.
Let's think about it a little further..
Is there something called a 100% happiness?? Yes or No??
The content below is NOT for those who said 'Yes'. It is neither for those who said 'No'..
It is for those who are unsure of which side to take. Am in the same state as you are. Right now, I do not have a binary answer to the above question. Maybe I/we will take a side when we are done with this post.
Life's most significant moments are no exceptions. When I was happy about being my class teacher's favorite in college, I was sad that I can no longer bunk classes. When I felt so happy that I will be the first engineer of my family, I couldn't be 100% happy as I couldn't make it to the top university. When I got my first salary, I couldn't enjoy the happiness completely because my friend's was higher than mine.
But this applies not only to our later years; when I was five, I participated in one of the toughest competitions in my school - The biscuit eating contest.. ;) I remember gulping down the biscuits as I had never in my life. Then came the announcement - 'Biscuit eating competition.. First prize goes to RATHIPRIYA V of UKG B'.. Lol ;)
Wonder why I brought this kindergarten story here? That was my life's first HAPPY moment.. But that happiness was not 100%. I cried on my way back home. 'Appa, they gave me Marie biscuits.. But I like Milk Bikis :(:(' Yes. That was my first SAD moment too. Even as a 5-year old, I was not enjoying 100% happiness.
A husband sleeps happily knowing that his wife loves him the most. But the next morning he is worried if he will lose the MOST LOVED tag, when he comes to know from his wife that they are expecting a baby. (Avan avan kavalai avan avanukku). A person who is the best in what he does is worried if he can always live up to it. When everything is so smooth, so positive, when we feel we are on top of the world, there comes this thought - Will this happiness endure? Every moment in life that I could think of, there was always a hitch that came along with the happy moment.
Happiness is not absolute. Happiness is not complete without a pinch of sadness. It's closely tied to the feel of satisfaction; There is never 100% satisfaction, hence no 100% happiness.
Be it a soup or LIFE, gluten is inevitable. Stop complaining if the soup is not gluten-free. Be happy that it's only a part of it and not the main course. It is impossible to taste life without gluten. One must learn to live with it. The one good thing is - It's Freeeeeeee.. At times, it is only this sadness that makes life more meaningful. It keeps us going. It keeps the moment alive. Practically, 100% happiness is not bearable. Of course, I have no experience. In fact, none has experienced it.
Every moment has happy and sad strings attached to it.
Happy are those who focus more on the positive aspects of the given moment :):)
Stay happy :):)
Cheers :):)
